It’s Been Rough…

Hello, remember me? It’s been a while so wasn’t so sure you would remember me. The past few months have definitely been a roller coster which is mainly due to my lovely frenemy, MS. This winter was pretty rough. It seemed like I basically crashed after my Europe trip and struggled to recover for a very long time. I even had a day with the family at the Air Force Museum and I spent the entire day in a wheelchair due to issues walking. It was a fun day but a hard day for me emotionally. I actually cried shortly after I sat down in the wheelchair for the first time that day.

There were a lot of times I thought “I need to sit down and write about this” but I think the depression and exhaustion won over. Now I feel there is so much I could have written about and now I forget most of it. I guess in a way you could look at that as a good thing, but you always want to remember what you have survived so you know in the future what you can conquer.

This spring I was finally able to pull myself out of the depression, get my MS back on track and start running again. Running does wonders for my state of mind but right now I am struggling with what it has done to me physically. I was originally planning on running the Capital City Quarter Marathon on May 4th, a leg of the Flying Pig Marathon Relay on May 5th, and Grandma’s Marathon on June 22nd. Well, the first two happened but I will have to pull out of Grandma’s Marathon this year because I developed a knee injury the last mile or so of my leg at the marathon relay. Not what I wanted to have happen on my come back from one of the worst winters of my life but that’s life. My knee isn’t horrible, I can still run shorter distances however my knee is not happy with me afterwards. I am going to take about a month to work on this injury and hopefully come back strong for the Air Force Half Marathon and possibly the Columbus Marathon in the fall.

Europe…that has been a hard looming subject of things I need to write about. This winter I was in a fairly dark place so I decided I wanted to write about that when I felt more like myself and could have fun with it. I felt if I wrote about it in the winter I would just want to rush it because I was in pain or I wanted to go to sleep…not what I wanted to do on something big like that. I hope in the next month or so I will be able to write about my trip to Europe in my normal voice.

Well, that is enough typing on the back porch for once evening. I think even my three huskies are starting to get a little bored. Guess there isn’t much going on in backyard here tonight.

My Flying Pig Marathon Relay team below. (As you can see I am rocking the ice on my knee already. :-) )

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4 thoughts on “It’s Been Rough…

  1. This disease is torture. I am like you I want record the multiple terribleness of my experiences but at the time I’m too unwell to be able to cope mentally or physically, then when I’m through the worst I can’t quite go back there. Its impossible for us to describe and therefore impossible for anyone else to understand. Its a very alone illness. I was a runner, can’t at all now so I want to encourage you to do what you can when you can, give in to the illness enough to not make it worse for yourself, . I find it helps when I’m in the pit of despair to remember that eventually everything changes. I trust in my Lord always and he is the only one that never stops listening, and I really can yell, scream, cry beg tell him al my thoughts and feelings and that alone helps and He has also miraculously helped me.
    Love and God Bless, Dorisx

  2. I can relate so much to a lot of that! Here’s to spring and summer and positive momentum for us, feeling good emotionally and physically. Thanks for your blog!

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