Demons And Steroids…

Well, needless to say I have been pretty quiet lately. I am kicking myself for still not posting about my trip yet but I think I have been fighting some inner demons since the end of November which in turn has given me some writers block. (Funny since I am really just retelling my life, I am not trying to write a short story for English class or something.) I am sure the clinical diagnosis would be something like mild depression but I have been referring to it as inner demons. In December my running decreased to try to “repair” my hips, stress at work increased and numbness/pain on the left side increased. Obviously not a good combination to try to fight your demons.

Two weeks ago life got even more difficult. Since I had been struggling with the numbness and pain on the left side for a few weeks my neurologist decided to prescribe me the fun five days of steroids. The last few times I had steroids it was only a three-day round however the last time I did have a five-day dose I don’t remember having the difficulties I had this last week. Every night I average 5-6 hours of sleep (I am use to getting at least 8 hours). I am not sure if the stress of work added to the lack of sleep but the mix of taking the steroids and lack of sleep really messed with me during the day. It ended up pushing me to my limits and I had to call my Mom to come over to help me take care of my three crazy huskies one night. I just had zero energy and I felt like I couldn’t even take care of myself. Just going to the next room felt like someone asked me to run a marathon. I did end up making it through the work week and caught up on sleep that weekend.

The beginning of this week I felt like I was starting to feel normal again except that I was still having the numbness and pain on the left side. I was making it through the week with the sleeping fairly well  but still feeling worn down. Wednesday I started feeling some pretty bad sinus pressure on the left side of my head and I thought it was just due to our lovely Ohio weather. It continued into Thursday and it started to feel a little more intense in the early afternoon. At this time I started to feel numbness in my cheek and occasionally in my month and tongue. This freaked me out a little as I had never had my tongue go numb. I called my neurologist office and left a message that I wanted to speak to someone about this. I wasn’t sure what was going on but thought I probably had some sinus issues and it was just putting pressure on a nerve that has already been damaged by…well, me (or I guess really my body attacking my nerves because for some reason it doesn’t like them).  Well, after talking to someone at my neurologist office it turns out I am having another relapse but one that is focused more on the left side of my head. We came to this conclusion because of my symptoms and that I wasn’t having any drainage or cold-like symptoms so we basically eliminated the actual sinus issues.

I was a little upset after hearing it was probably another relapse. I was also upset to hear that they strongly suggested that I take it easy this weekend if possible. I tried to take it easy but it is hard for me to sit still especially when there are things to do, which there always are in my house. Plus I really wanted to get back to running this weekend. Well, tomorrow is the start of a new work week and hopefully can I focus on getting more sleep this week. And maybe finally posingt about my trip to Europe! New Post: Paris!

First night in Paris (And oddly enough me on only one hour of sleep and feeling pretty good. It was probably the Paris high or something.)

First night in Paris (And oddly enough me on only one hour of sleep and feeling pretty good. It was probably the Paris high or something.)

Ice Cream: The Breakfast Of Champions

Song Of the Post: “Ice Cream” By Sarah McLachlan

Ice cream for breakfast…its what you dreamed of having every morning as a kid. My mother always loves telling us what our grandmother (her mother) would say when we stayed at her house: “You are at Grandma’s house, you can have whatever you want for breakfast. If you want ice cream for breakfast you can have ice cream for breakfast.” Drove my mother nuts. Of course when you get older and you move out on your own you may have ice cream for breakfast a few times to rebel but then you usually realize that it really wasn’t the greatest idea after all.

Well, the past few days the pain and numbness on my left side has really increased. I finally gave in yesterday and decided to go on steroids again, I just couldn’t take it anymore. I have pain while I am at work then I come home where I have a list of things I would like to do but I am already in pain and worn out from the day so I don’t want to do anything. Plus I want to get running again and its hard to walk out that door to run when you are already in pain or your leg is numb or both.

Enough of the pain and numbness talk, let’s get back to the ice cream. If you don’t have MS or have MS but are lucky enough to not have had to take steroids yet, you do not know the amount of steroids doctors usually prescribe to hopefully help you get over a relapse (or at least make it shorter). The pill option they will usually prescribe is anywhere from one to five days of 25 pills of 50mg of prednisone each day. (If you have a more old school pharmacy nearby you might luck out with one horse pill a day. I had this last time.) This is where the ice cream comes in (at least for me). I cannot stand the taste of these pills so I need something to take with it to mask the taste. During my first set of steroids like this I tried just taking them with milk, that definitely didn’t work. Then I tried taking them with some yogurt and that didn’t help much either. Finally I spoke to the nurse practitioner at my doctors office and she suggested I try eating them with ice cream or a smoothie to mask the taste. So when it comes time to take these lovely steroids, I switch up my normal cereal and yogurt for a little bit of cereal and ice cream and steroids. Its just not as fun anymore…but I guess it is still an excuse to eat ice cream for breakfast. 🙂 Hey, if you want to use me as excuse tomorrow morning to eat ice cream for breakfast to”feel my pain” on my first day of steroids I will understand. 😉